ruined

I can't even stand the feel of my own skin at the moment. I feel like im really losing it at the moment. I just want things to be real. No more of this psuedo crap. It doesn't mean anything, and yet it's so easy to be tricked into thinking it does.

I'm tired of feeling like a broken ruined creature, because that's all I feel like. I get that i don't mean a whole to anyone other than my 'rents; and so that's like really heart breaking. And dammit I tossed that stinkin' heart away - why did it have to come back? Life is easier when you lack emotions. I was an idiot for letting them back in.

I'm not a random emo loser. Thanks for turning me into one again. I think too much; take a guess what I'm thinking about. You knew what you were going to do - again, thanks for hanging on. You told me you were selfish. Yup. I'm beginning to think all men are selfish pricks. Hence the alone thing. I'm not going out on that limb again.

I'm gonna stick right here next to the tree trunk, even if i do turn bitter and downtrodden.

This sucks.